Ok How is this possible?

gangstalking and targeted individuals … that whole realm of invisible war is cruel programming.  On the dark web i am auctioned to live a cursed life for very little credit as i am sober and the tasks are horrendous like getting shot at and getting ringworm.  No bullets have hit me yet but i am threatened with disembodied voices about it all the time.  I am a very haunted person.  None of this is mutual.

Even if it is the apocalypse, be kind to people.  Attitudes are contagious.

Please protect women and children, and please encourage education for all people.  I ... wish you all the best, but yeah, I can't be very in touch right now, because I am reeling.  It feels like I have shingles and fibromyalgia at the same time almost all the time.

I got medication a year after writing this and calmed down gradually, but my body is still not my own as far as health goes. 

I guess I went to school with people not liking me, and i guess i just never won anyone over.  I get a horrible feeling about this but it is true i have zero contact with past acquaintances.

 the guy who infected me.   acted paid.  (You should know i did not have a car and was crying that my answer was no.  Then i needed help from someone and they also coerced me while i was stranded again and this froze my brain into confusion and stress with a history of little to no support for mental health like medication.). More than one person was an instigating and confrontational force.  Everything is fudged.  Really tough to face.

The system is that they throw inaccurate blame because: addiction rules people and not having control makes people weak so of course the daily violence is due to some exposed fault which offers excuses. (I guess they work on my report a lot and have a technique called ducking which is unfair imo)

This... is a nightmare they want me harmed so i am masered with constant paranoia and infecto ray and gamma knife started 2015 with a guy who hated me for my high school years but! i got visions and voices in high school … but of a woman who was revealed in 2015 and she hurt me so bad calling me a bad name of sorts in highschool, and my senior year i was barely living feeling like hell very much dumped by this woman who covertly hurt my feelings on a weird brain wave.)


That guy was friends with a classmate and cheerleader from lincolnshire illinois since highchool days (edit: the guy in hawaii from 2015 when voices started long term up until these very days 2025 update still fighting harassment)

So the truth is i said i wanted to leave an island twice but the people go street on me and then blame me even if they are most likely surf buddies.  So it is like people get together online or in person to discuss my effect but wouldnt gossip and grudges ensure that i never have any team?  Its too destructive this war on me.  Come on.  Hiv rape victim ptsd is a biohazard plus poverty.

They try to make it about family and stalked me using military weapons from the 90s which vice has done a documentary about.  It is voice of god weapon and no touch torture, and they pay people to yell at me.

About family.  They did not support me having a sweet idea ever.  I get fought a lot or turned away when trying to say hey please i dont hate u or listen to my cause but a script is extracted to ensure a hierarchy and after a female crisis they admitted hey btw u were a lab baby u were an anon donor dad kid.  I really needed this to get the fire to get away from this trap but we have little in common and they cut me off financially so they had me sort of subdued.  I truly am shy but needed the guts to seek a better support.  I was scorned most my life until they saw meds kept me quiet and fat.

Many know what the motives are and how far the broadcasting has gone.

Exposure is dangerous.  Extremes are dangerous.  You do the math.


Please do not support bullying:  please do not villainize me.  This guy knew I was poor and called my area vermin …someone called my hair a rat nest.  The condescension breeds a lot of pain for me and anyone helping me.  I never hated any race or creed, but they make me out to be their enemy because they are violent with regret.  In the end im too weak to really say any of all color or all creed is worth a mass support system because this “group” is going to extract an ambassador to let me down.

They are forcing me to live in a reality where they are putting me in danger and  They antagonize and instigate in person to the point where I fight back or whatever and they come up with or out of context they take that exact exasperation EVERY time, and make it a focal point for conversation about me.  This has been years without protective resources.  I am a victim of the gangstalking and unemployment.  They have tried to make me homeless and have been hurting my family, and in denial, they only yell about it when ... obviously... there is no context.

They rip the digestive system so it is painful to wake up stiff.  I have parasites.  I have had mold.

My torturers do not support medical advancements:  they have used my body and spied on me, using technology for celebrities to hurt me rather than keep me safe or healthy.  They condescended to call me - slur or so a main enemy did, but did not want to identify as any religion, so they had people rape me to give me hiv.  They never include the detail that I was clearly against hook ups and against sexual voraciousness.  They dismiss all my struggles.  They paint me as the hater they most likely embody the most.  I think there was verbal programming, but then that means there was a plan or inside joke.  Horrible revelation ever. 


I grew up with bickering and teasing under the roof and had to clear it out of my system young but it is sad to see it catch up to me in other far more beautiful people or just really petty people who cant admit hey i reformed i changed.  So the grudge deal.  It is very strong these days, but maybe monetarily supported for atleast ten years overtly.

They un-ionize which has caused keloids and sore throat.  please help.  They have a distance and diet rube when I leave or eat.  They create sickening rules and totally buy into this agenda of sickening people and forcing violence.  Make it stop.

my blood pressure my stress my nerves it all changes all the time every day due to news about dark web auctions and polls or perhaps even coin programs i have heard about where crypto fuels output into society.

Please fight evil for all of us weaker folk.

I feel like… disembodied minds or spirits or even moments of time are pasted or stuck on me in me overlayed.  It is so weird and bizarre.  Please google targeted individual books.  Please be respectful and kind and im sorry about any problems.  I am staying out of the way.

Also i am updating that i had schisms in the family where i was told to just leave before 16.  I had three physical altercations with my dad which he dominated to threaten me before i graduated high school.  I was called mentally ill without support for meds my senior year, told i look like a hospitalized old lady.  Recently… i was reminded once again the minute i turn my back i am still on silent and not communicated with between family.  So who has ever been my friend?  Its nuts.

They assigned guys for too long and the pain from that has also made me an outlier to absolutely need platonic arms length interaction due to germaphobia and sensitive nose and how the voices go crazy and how i get sexual harassment DAILY covertly with the maser.  So yeah.  I did not want this it is a guarantee of no future and i need help.

Voices have told me this is black ops an illegal sector of manipulation from more powerful people.

If you give death sentence to a kid, you are black ops, they said.  I was hit by two drivers (big truck and car on wabash) during college days, my one and only year, while i was bothered by two guys to exit school in that same lone year.  This is too much.  I hear this is an online forum to increase punishment for people bent out of shape that i persist.  I am a bit manipulated with mkultra, so I am not convinced I am willingly hurting anyone, but my family has sworn to neglect me on many levels especially being outside the house.  However, I was not treated fabulously like any friend in their company.  I was denied a computer ged school to escape social problems, or paranoia, and no one would help the path to medication for mental problems.  I lose every contest, the compare and contrast for being a priority and yes that hurts.  I still promise to myself not to willingly plan or consider being more painful or criminal.  I am aware I am surveilled and following my heart even if silenced and obscured by this persecution and torture.

I want to say there is a huge threat to me regarding flesh oriented desire.  Any flesh dedicated to venus will be harmed by a wife of an agent, because the woman is diabetic.  I will be cursed with diabetes if I am romantically involved with anyone.  I have the risk for pregnancy as well, because medical personnel are guided to be cursed in service to me.  My desire not to have kids did come from a message from my great grandma who died while my grandma was young.  If I am getting acne from staph unlike crimo of highland park shooting, then the tables have turned, and beauty is dedicated to a weird distortion.  I am not saying to be dirty for god, but supposedly a church encouraged it, so there really is a change in trend.  It is like covid exhausted us to the point of saturnalia.  At the same time, there are victims of the christian effort, like gays and native tribes.  I am needing this limitation earlier, but I sought friends without direct communication that I am a blacklisted/blackballed targeted individual.  Some of it is the curse of ham in a way.  Silence is just part of the direction people need to go to build their area.  I could only hope to be an esau in this, willing to be helpful despite the issues I deal with for so long.